Why Always in June?

After making a new blog for Yenni, I think there's some idea that I want to write.Of course it's not about the myth :) Maybe I start with this month. 

June, a month in a year which is always being the busiest month of the year. For me, as a student and for other jobs. Hmm, I remember that I wrote a post "My Plans in June This Year" last year. Passing this month, need more and more power and energy. I have to keep fighting to face final exams, research proposal, prepare for social service, my organization program, etc. And someone will leave me for two months. In addition, this week is a week which make my emotion flare up. Maybe this week I got a premenstrual syndrome. I don't know, before this period, I've never been like this. I could manage my emotion in order not to be flare up. I think something is missing in my life. But I don't know what it is.

Tired, maybe this word can describe what I feel right now. But, I also think that my efforts haven't been up. I don't know why, where is my self that always do the best to reach her dream, to be useful for her family, for people around her, even for all people in the world? (#lebay dikit, hehe..) Somebody help me please T.T

Fortunately, I have my mom. I don't know what would I do without her. She always remind me to keep praying, always do the good things, manage my emotion. She convince me that I could reach my dream, cheer up when I was so tired. I just tell my self, even though I am tired of all the things, just remember people around you who always support me, don't let them down. Sooo, I promise to my self, I will not let my parent down. 

I also think that I haven't done anything that useful for other in my youth. Whereas my life decreasing day by day. What can I do for others? Hmm.. I think I need to meet people that have a dynamic and great thinking, ideas, but who? I know I have a difficulty to get closer to other, but actually I want to socialize with them. There's a lot of things that I have to learn in this life.

Sooo, cheer up and smile Fariztah :) Dory said that everything is gonna be okay ^^